My Name is HAD-- Life Lessons Learned!

My name is Had. You may know me, but you may not know my new name. You may have no idea what I 've been through because I do my best to look the same. I am scared to death of you. I use to be just like you. I once held my head up high without propping in on my hymnal. I was well respected back then, and I even respected myself. I was whole-hearted devoted to God, and if the truth be known, somewhere deep inside I was sometimes the slightest bit proud of my devotion. Then I'd repent because I knew pride was wrong. I didn't want to be wrong. Not ever. People looked up to me. And life looked good from up there. I felt good about who I was. That was before I was Had. Strangely, I no longer remember my old name. I just remembered I liked it. I liked who I was. I wish I could go back. I wish I would just wake up. But I fear I'm wide awake. I have had a nightmare. And the nightmare was me Had.

If I could really talk to you and you could really listen, I'd tell you I have no idea how all of this happened. Honestly, I was just like you. I didn't plan to be Had. I didn't want to be Had. One day I hadn't, and then the next day I had. Oh, I know where I went wrong. I have rewound the nightmare a thousand times, stopping it right at the point where I departed the trail of good sense. The way ahead didn't look wrong. It just looked different. Strange, he didn't look like the devil in the original scene. But every time I replayed it, he dropped another piece of his masquerade. When he finally took off his mask, he was laughing at me. Nothing seems funny anymore. I will never laugh again as long as he is laughing.

If only I could go back. I would see it this time! I would walk around the trap camouflaged by the bush, and I would not be Had. I would be proud. Was that my old name? Proud? I can't even remember who I was anymore. I thought I was Good. Not Proud. But I don't know anymore. Would you believe I never heard the trap shut? Too many voices were shouting in my head. I just new I got stuck somewhere unfamiliar and soon I didn't like the scenery anymore. I wanted to go home. I pulled and pulled on the trap but the foothold wouldn't budge. I had no way out. I screamed for God. He came for me. As he inspected my shattered ankle I expected him to say, "You deserve this, you know. You've been Had." Because he did and I know and I have. He hasn't said it yet. I don't know how much to trust him yet. I've never known him from this side. My leg still hurts. God says it will heal in time. But I fear I will always walk with a limp. You see I wrestled with the devil and he gave me a new name. Had.

Have you ever been Had? God says He doesn't want us to forget. We say, we just want to be healed. Has Good or Proud ever gotten in the way of you being Healed? There have been more Hads than Good or Proud may ever know. And sometimes it takes a Has Been to know a Had. God wanted to make sure we never act like we never been Had, so he leaves the scares. Never forget where you have been, and never forget the dead times God has raised you up from the times of being Had. Learn from them, mature from them and praise God for the Had that you once were and may be again.

Greg Ryan is a best selling author of the Changing from the INSIDE OUT series. A powerful five step plan to better your life, get healthier, and have more energy! For FREE mini Course click here! http://www.resolutions.bz

---

Why is Kabbalah so Attractive to Hollywood A-Listers Like Madonna, Britney Spears and Demi Moore?

CARLSBAD, CALIFORNIA: Of course we may never know the real... Read More

We Are Not Our Personalities

As a Psychiatrist I spent most of my life training... Read More

Basic Tarot for Beginners

If you would like to learn to read tarot cards,... Read More

People May Let You Down

Is your hope in God? Or, is it in people?I... Read More

My Name is HAD-- Life Lessons Learned!

My name is Had. You may know me, but you... Read More

Allowing Joy

"Ask and it shall be given" is a phrase we... Read More

Looking Back With A Pained Expression

Anyone who tells you that the path to self-actualization is... Read More

Christian Love

Actually, loving does not take any great effort on our... Read More

Ego, Duality, and Paradise (Why You Cant Get to Paradise on an Ego Trip)

If you've been on a conscious spiritual journey for any... Read More

Path to Healing

It is within us to... Read More

The Foundational Laws of Spiritual Physics

Over the past years, I have undergone a life-altering transition... Read More

Prayer - The Ultimate power

There is an prayer process in every religion and everyone... Read More

The Problem with Anger

As Christians, we know we need God in every aspect... Read More

Praying To Overcome Invisible Entry Barriers

Recently, I received a frantic midnight call from one of... Read More

There is Light at the End of the Tunnel - Just Get Out of Your Way !

There is light at the end of the tunnel, but... Read More

Gods Love is Not Humanitys Love

(Channelled)Good morning Roy, good morning Joseth.What has love got to... Read More

Understanding the Gospel of Matthew and Why it Matters - Part 4

Matthew 2:1-12The Visit of the Wise Men1 Now after Jesus... Read More

Lance Armstrong had it Right-- Every Second Does Counts!

I have been counseling people on weight loss, exercise efficiency... Read More

Calling All Angels - Talking to Angels

I am a big believer in the strength of a... Read More

The Path Less Traded - the Spiritual Road to Financial Abundance!

There is nothing more valuable to a sentient being then... Read More

Immaterial Gain

Among some of us who deem ourselves spiritual, the use... Read More

Truly Save

I can truly say to this day of August, 2005,... Read More

Life Coaching and Beyond

In Corrogue the air is chill and the frost is... Read More

100 Steps To Eternity

There is a chronology of events from creation to the... Read More

Leaving Storyville

One of the most difficult barriers... Read More

Psychic Vampires, and How to Cope with Them!

Forget what you have read or seen about vampires. The... Read More

Love and Light

Seems that everyone who writes to me signs their letters... Read More

Expect the Best and Get It

The famous prayer of Jabez, where Jabez prayed for prosperity,... Read More

From Spiritual Cry Baby to Bold Seeker of Truth

Ever notice how people dread discussing... Read More

A Man Called Jesus

(Channelled)I have been trying to ignore this title "A Man... Read More

Hold On!

Job was a spiritual man who loved and obeyed God... Read More

Show Of Hands

The human body is surely a miracle of God's creation.... Read More

Enlightenment, Moving to a New Level of Awareness

(Channelled)Roy, what a marvellous job you are doing on your... Read More